Sammy has been laid to rest in my back yard. There were too many roots, after pulling just about every muscle in my body I gave up and my dad went out there with an axe. I thought it was fitting... my PARENTS killed her, let him do the work as he should've done long ago.

I took one last look at Sammy and realized something... her eyes were OPEN. Through all of her suffering her eyes were closed, she couldn't open them for some reason. Now that she's gone home to heaven, her eyes are wide open again, as she deserves. I gently pet her head, which I wished so badly I could have done last night, put her in her "coffin" with all of her toys... and laid her to rest.



Goodbye, Sammy. I'm sorry my parents treated you as they did for 10 long years. I'm sorry that I walked past you every day not doing what I should've - taking responsibility for you. You loved and trusted us anyway, and I know I can learn from your example.

I was only trying to help. I knew the vet would be good for you, I needed to make sure you didn't have any diseases. I'm sorry it stressed you out so much. I should've covered your cage in the car. Maybe I should've even put you in a box so you couldn't have caught your flapping wings on anything. I'm sorry I didn't think of that, I wish I had.

I hope you understand that while the vet was scary and uncomfortable, she loved you and was only doing what was best. Your nails needed to be cut back, and your nose needed to be cleared out, and I needed to make sure you weren't sick... not only for you, but to make sure I didn't transmit a disease between you and Andrew, too.

I wish I would've been able to spend more time with you. I wanted you to see that not all humans are bad. I wanted to give you a big cage with better perches and more toys. I wanted to give you better food, if you would have been willing to try it. Even if I never could have touched you I wanted you to know that I was willing to... I wanted to be the one scritching your head every day, instead of the toy that you rubbed yourself on. But I knew you were too hurt by your past for that.

And now I just have to convince myself that you've got more than I ever could've given you. You don't need a cage anymore, you're flying free. The millet that you love isn't bad for you anymore, and you can eat it endlessly. I hope you enjoy having feathers again, and please do leave them there haha they're good for you, you know. And I hope I see you again.

Fly free, Sammy. And know that I've learned a lot from you. Hopefully I'll learn how to love people who don't even deserve to be loved. I promise you I'll take better care of Andrew. And I promise you that someday, when Saint-Clair and I are able to, we'll rescue another needy bird, and hopefully we'll be able to help him/her like we weren't able to help you. Even from so far away, Saint-Clair did love you too, and he was looking forward to helping me help you. You'll be able to meet him someday, too.

So Sammy, farewell. Rest in peace, and enjoy the freedom and health and joy that I wish I could've given you myself. And again, I'm sorry that I didn't help you sooner... I really, really wish I had.

Angilla I am so sorry. Sammy is in a better place now, flying free without pain or fear.

Angilla,

My heart (and tears) go out to you.

Sammy is enjoying life now...........

I am so sorry!

Sending you hugs Angilla, I know this has been such a difficult time for you and Sammy. We're thinking about you - Mary and Petey

Angilla, I followed your posts from the very first one. Your story was very moving, and I'm sorry that you weren't able to help Sammy as you'd have liked. Most of all, I'm sorry for your loss. But Sammy is flying freely now, high above, free from the horrors that she knew in this life. You did your very best, and I am certain that Sammy knew it in her heart. Clearly, she was a very trusting and loving bird. And I think that she would be honored to know that you've learned so much from this that you want to reach out to other birds in their times of need.

Be well, Angilla. And Sammy, rest in peace.

You know Angilla atleast "its all over now"! The Lord said that "not one sparrow fell to the ground" without His knowledge. I believe one Fine day the Lord in His infinate Love will maybe let us be reunited with our Earthly Fids and pets. The Bible says that in Heaven there will be no more "sorrow or tears"! She was made by his hands and is His all abiding Love now. Fly Free now Sammy
MY Heart is with you...your a fine girl...and did the right thing...

HUGGS
Janet

Angilla, you wrote such a heart warming story of your times with Sammy.....My heart is sad too, as is yours and everyone today....

Sammy is resting well now and you certainly did your best for little Sammy and I know Sammy felt that too....

My best to you and St. Clair in your future journey together and my love to little Andrew.....

You did the right thing for Sammy even if it didn't turn out the way we would like for it too......

I'm so sorry it had to end this way - I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes for your loss of Sammy - you are a very brave young lady. It's been such a sad day for everyone - I hate reading these posts. Hugs to you.

I just logged on to see how you and Sammy were doing and found this thread. I am so sorry for the loss of sweet Sammy. You did your best for her and as you and others have said now, at least she is at peace and will never be frightened ot lonely again. (HUG)

I am so very sorry for your loss. Rest in peace sweet Sammy ...

I'm so sorry to hear that Sammy didn't make it. I'm sure your attentiveness to her, in her last few days, made her feel loved. Sometimes that's all you can do, and it means the world to them.

So sorry for your loss

Sorry for your loss, you did a wonderful thing for poor Sammy, even if it didn't turn out how you wanted it to. Now concentrate on Andrew and getting him happy. Good luck and keep posting and we will all help you along the way.

Goodbye Sammy, fly free.

believe me you did the right thing and i know sammy knew it, it wasnt their fault i guess it was her time. somtimes you feel guilty about things but you do notice that she is finally in a better place not suffering.. Take care my dear,