Maybe things are getting to be too much for me? Maybe I am too overwhelmed with the baby, the pets, work, the rest of my family??

Today an accident happend that should not have ever happend, and I am to blame.

I am just sick to my stomach, and I feel so horrible!! I preach to my family, tell them what they can and cannot do with the birds out. And today, I didnt follow my own rules.

Sunny (Jim's sun conure) had to be moved away from the rest of the birds. He had a horrible attitude towards all the birds, except Lymon. He was horribly attached to Lymon, and wouldnt let us near her when they were caged together, so we moved them.

Sunny wasnt clipped because he would draw blood and inflict harsh pain on anyone who gripped him in any way. We were going to clip him this weekend, as Jim is the only one who can tolerate the pain and bleeding from Sunny's beak.

So, we kept Sunny in the bathroom. This way, we had control of where Sunny could be if Ansley or I had him out. Jim would bring him out to the rest of the house, because he had a respectfor Jim and would stay with him and not wander off like he did for Ansley and I.

I use all natural cleaners, and this way when I spent my time cleaning the bathroom, Sunny could be out and about with me, usually on my shoulder or head telling me what spot I missed on the sink.

Sunny and I were picking up in the bathroom this morning. Lucas was napping... so it is my time to get my other things done.

Lucas started to whine, and it wasnt a horrible whine.... but I went to check on him anyways. I put Sunny back on his cage.

When I came back in, he wasnt there. He was in the toilet. It was only a matter of 5 or 10 minutes at the most. Sunny is gone, and it is my fault!!!!

Sunny would dive in to any water he could to take a bath, include Jim's large water glass! lol

I am constantly telling everyone that NO WATER can be left out. No mop buckets, toilet lid down, no birds out while boiling ANYTHING on the stove, or while doing dishes. And I kill Sunny today.

I am just sick.

If nothing else, please please take this as a reminder the do's and dont's of parronthood.

We rescued Sunny from an un-loving, un-caring, un-social enviornment. We didnt realize why she got rid of him until about a month after we had him. We had discussed giving him up, but we took in a problem bird... I didnt want to make him anyone else's problem...or make his issues worse. So, we adjusted to Sunny's quirks.

Please please please be careful what you do in your home daily. THINK before you do anything... apparently I didnt today.

Sunny, I will miss you.. I am so sorry for what I did.

Oh Heather, I am so sorry. Please don't beat yourself up. It was an accident.

Hugs!

Heather, accidents happen...you were doing things in the order of priority...baby people, birds...Sunny was cared for the first time in his life and he left with that. I am so sorry that it happened though.

Heather please don't beat yourself up. Accidents happen.! Our thoughts are with you during this sad time for you.

I am so so sorry and please don't beat yourself up..it was an accident..again I am so sorry...(((huggs))))

I am very sorry for your loss Heather.

This post made me cry. I am so sorry Heather. Sometimes things just happen!

Awe, Heather,
My heart goes out to you, My eyes are filled with tears... and I know you feel something terrible.... in time you will feel better, for now like everyone else says, try not to blame yourself... We all make mistakes in seconds too... It too could have happened to anyone of us..
Hugs,
Carol

I am so sorry for your loss.

I'm sorry about Sunny!I can't hold back the tears because my heartbreaks for you,family and Sunny.

Heather, I'm so sorry for your loss. Like Andie said, you were taking care of things in priority order. Please don't beat on yourself for this. Live with the knowledge that Sunny KNEW you were doing for him when no one else would!

My thoughts are with you!

HOWEVER UNFORTUNATE... accidents happen... we all have them... i am so sorry for the loss. please take comfort in the fact that you did offer a loving family that he didnt have.. these things can happen to the best parront. our hearts go out to you....

Ohh Heather .. I am so sorry for your loss ..

Heather, I'm so sorry. Please don't beat yourself up, accidents can and will happen to the best of us.

Oh Heather, I am so very sorry. Please do not let the guilt eat you up. Accidents happened. Remember all that you did for Sunny, all that you gave him...love and respect. Hold onto that and never forget it. Sunny was blessed to have lived in your home.

Many hugs to you for your loss.

I am so sorry for your loss. Like the others have said, please don't blame yourself. Accidents happen. My thoughts will be with you.

I am so sorry Heather.

I am very sorry for your loss, please take care it's not your fault accidents do happen.

I am so sorry this happened, like everyone has said, accidents happen. Very sorry.

Heather,

I feel bad for you, I know exactly how you feel, I lost a bird because of not paying attention.

Think of this as a learning tool for all of us. We have all learned that it only takes a matter of seconds for something awful to happen to a loved one, be it furry, feathered or human. And we have to do all that we HUMANLY can to prevent bad things from happening to our loved ones.

I believe that things happen for a reason, and though they might be terrible and hard to deal with at the time, sooner or later a little light will come on and you'll know.

I know this doesn't help with the hurt and guilt your feeling at the moment. But just know that Sunny's spirit is flying with all the heavenly creatures and is in a much better place.

Again, except my condolences. As others have said, don't beat yourself up over this. You were doing what you needed to do and just got side tracked that's all...that's why things are called accidents.

So sorry Heather.
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I'm so sorry Heather (((hugs))) Don't beat yourself up, accidents happen.

Please accept my sympathies, Heather. I am so sorry for your loss.