About 8 yrs ago, my phone range late on a Sat. evening. It was a friend of mine who knew I rescued parrots asking my If I could rescue a pair of Blue Fronted Amazons. They were said to be a breading pair but were fighting constantly and severely. At first I said no because the owner was selling them, but after an hour of thinking on it I decided that because it was an individual and not a company I would see what I could do. I called in some makers and found a friend who would take one of the birds and split the cost. The owner was asking $400 dollars for 2 BFAs and a Macaw cage. I immediately separated them and began working with them. The larger responded immediately stepping up and cuddling, allowing petting, Talking. I sent him on to my friend. I began working with the other who had lost most of his feathers due to the constant fighting. He came around more slowly but we developed a strong bond. I chose to keep him because of this bond. Over the next 6 yrs we were almost inseparable he traveled with me. We went for walks in the park, he would set on my shoulder most evenings as we watched TV and shared a bowl of popcorn.
at around age 7 he started to reach sexual maturity and became a handful. He had been allowed to grow into free flight because West Nile had reached this area and I had not been taking him out side. He was able to fly from one room to the next to see where I was and what I was doing. He had been acting aggressively all week and that morning I was going to put him in his cage because of his Behavior. He was flying from room to room avoiding my because he knew he was to be locked up. I wasn't chasing him, but when I followed him into the living room he flew as fast as possible and became unable to slow down in time to prevent hitting the wall head on.
He has been gone 2 yrs and I still miss greatly. Recently a friend offered me a great gift, a baby BFA. This was not a rescue but a sweet baby that would come home with me as soon as he was weaned. I went on several " bonding" visits before telling my friend it wasn't possible. I just can't replace the irreplaceable.

Sorry you lost your buddy, but think of it this way, you aren't replacing him, you're just spreading the love you have to another bird. This bird will never replace what you've had previously and lost; but you might find that you could form an even tighter bond and relationship with this new baby. And it might fill the void your feeling.

Amen to that--I totally agree....Hope you rethink that....

Im sorry that you miss your buddy. I too will never get over also loosing my Mexican Red HEaded Amazon Samantha She was special. Im sending you hugs and prayers.

Aw, that had to be terrible to see. I am SO sorry. I am like you though, right now I can't possibly imagine getting another bird. Maybe someday but no time soon.

I know how you feel..This September will be 4 years since I lost my beloved JJ (Australian King Parrot) after keping his huge cage for 2 years I gave it away as I know my heart could not ever have another King , my heart still aches for him at times and I have the baby rug I brought his body home from the vet in I often cuddle it and shed a tear ...Only another who has loved and lost a fid could understand that empty hole the shape of a bird that is left in our hearts forever...
My two little boys mean the world to me but there will never be another JJ...
I am sure if you look back you will find memorials and postings about him as most every year on the anniversary of his passing I post about him...
I read your story and cried as I do really understand ..sending hugs from downunder across the miles to a kindred spirit...