And I miss you like crazy boy. Just thinking about you- writing about you heats my eyes into a chaos of lonely tears, and once again they are out of control.
I could never forget you buddy, my best friend. you shared all my secrets with me while I was sick and dark, helped me through when blackness clouded thick and intoxicating around my shoulders.
Your eyes were so understanding, so big, brown and kind. I can see them now and thats how I know you are still watching over me. Making sure I stay safe and happy. Its hard to be happy without you though, you had been with me for all the life I remember. 15 years ago now...
Those are the only days I care to remember.
I could never get another border though Sheppy, you were the one. No other could replace you, and I can't imagine life someone who looked just like you. I was thinking about a Labrador or a Kelpie, but it is still to early...
I have to go now boy, but I just wanted to touch base (I know you already know the pain in my heart), it feels so much more real if I can see my own thoughts.
I love you Shep, I will forever, and I don't think I will ever have a friend as loving as you. Speak to you soon. I love you.