I always dreaded the day when i would be writing here, and it has come. I lost my beautiful little wild spirited keet Blanca two days ago. She had a tumor and had to be put down. I hate that i didnt get to be there to say good bye but the only good thing was that the two days she was sick, i was able to get her out of her cage and hold her. That morning before i left for work, i took her out and held her. I stroked her head and told her i loved her. (She was not hand raised and we could never hold her before without her biting the tar out of your fingers. I could give anything right now for one of those bites.

I bought her as a companion for a little male keet that landed in my life one day. I was told that keets dont do well on their own so i bought him a girl friend. They were together for 3 years. They would fight over the swing, she always won, and fuss at each other but at night, they slept side by side.

Azul is missing her really bad right now. He keeps going to the swing and looking for her and he isnt singing anymore. That breaks my heart.

Even though the vet said that there was nothing we could have done, i still cant help feel like there just might have been something and i pray that she didnt suffer. I took her to the vet the day i noticed her labored breathing. At first i thought she might be trying to lay an egg, but i wasnt sure so i took her. The tumor was huge. How could i have not known? I pray so much that she didnt suffer.

THe hardest part is. no one understands how much this hurts. THey all say, well, you couldnt hold her or play with her. Didnt they hear her singing every morning or notice everytime you went into put some laundry in the washer she would sing and make pretty clicking noices?

My poor little quaker Maui is totally wore out. When ever i am sad and crying, he whimpers and then says "You ok?" "Dont cry" he sits on my head and preens my hair saying it over and over trying to make mama feel better. God, what would i do without him?

Thank you all for listening, i knew that you would undertand how much this hurts and not just tell me i am over reacting.

I am so sorry about Blanca.....fly free little Blanca Sending BIG HUGS to you Bonnie...

aw gosh. I am so very sorry for your loss. It always hurts to lose an animal, no matter if you can hug it, pet it, stroke it, preen it, or not. You're in my thoughts.

Don't blame yourself for not knowing. Birds are so good at hiding physical ailments. And we DO understand how you feel. Maybe when you feel a little better, you can get Azul a new friend so he won't be lonely, and it might help you both. In the meantime, know that you did all you could for her, and she must have been very happy, because female budgies don't make a lot of noise, so if she sang and chirped, she was a cheerful, happy bird!

You are right. Other people do NOT understand how we feel when we lose a little featherbutt! The people here in the group understand though. That's why I always say we are here for each other.
Our birds are NOT like children to us, they are like our BABIES. They are like babies no matter how old they get, because they can't do for themselves. They have to depend on us all their lives.
I always hurt for those who have lost their featherbabies and so now I hurt for you. I wish there were something I could do to make you feel better. Knowing there is not, all I can say now is "someday a little featherblessing will come along and fill the hole in your heart". Until then, we feel your pain.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I'm very sorry about Blanca. I hope your heart heals soon. They mean so much to us!

Thank you all for your kindness and understanding. It helps so much to have people who understand. I miss her so much and so does Azul so the search is on for a new girlfriend for him. I am going out today to look. This is the hardest part of owning these little critters. When i have to go through this, i tell myself no more because it hurts too much but then i realize it hurts even more not to have them in your life.

Thanks again everyone for your kind words. They help the healing process alot.

I am so sorry for your loss of Blanca. I have tears in my eyes from reading your post. You gave Blanca a good and loving home. She was happy and lived a good life with you and her little budgie friend. I feel your pain and do understand. Your right non bird people do not understand what these little guys mean to us. My thoughts are with you.

I am so sorry and I hope you are able to find a little girl today. You have no reason to feel guilty, she had a loving caring home for as long as she was here on earth.

I know words don`t help the pain go away , but do know others here do understand and feel your hurt (hugs) I am so very sorry for your loss....

Im so sorry for your loss. sending you hugs.

I'm so sorry for your loss and the pain in your heart.
It's so hard to know what to say sometimes, but we are all thinking of you.

I am sorry for you loss too. I know how hard it is to make this decision but you made it knowing you did want her to suffer. It isnt easy and you do need to take time grieve. His mate is also grieving. He knows something happened and is feeling a bit down too. I found your quacker's reaction very touching too. (((Hugs)))