I think it's the guilt that has been the worst. After all I had left for the weekend, and she had died while I was gone. I've done this many times before, and I don't know if I could have helped her, but regardless the Guilt remains eating away at me.

Here is what happened :: I went away for the weekend, came home mid-afternoon, and went to her cage to feed her --- like I always do, but She was dead. Egg-binding. My Avian Vet is over 58 miles away, and it is the nearest one, but I cannot stop torturing myself with the thought, "If I had been home, I could have done Something... Something. Anything."

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I just found out my upsairs neighbors were broken into. It may have been while I was gone. It may have been while I was home. It has helped to put things in perspective :: What if on top of my Gemini's death I had come home to find my place broken into?

Those poor people do not have insurance. I feel so bad for them. In some way that has helped me deal with my grief. I don't know....

I am so sorry for your loss (Hugs) coming from across the miles..Don`t beat yourself up these things happen regardless of if we are around or not , sometimes life just sucks.....

Thank-you so much! *Hugs*

Andrea I'm so very sorry for your lost----just take your time to grieve because it is good for you; and just know that you wouldn't have known it had you been home...so be easy on yourself...wishing you a big healing....

Thank-you so much! I am treating myself with a dose of Coldplay. Just listening to A Rush Of Blood To The Head, (The song not the album) and crying. It seems to only way to grieve. It's what I've always done, in times of Grief --- Loose myself in music. Everybody has different ways to mourn.

my heart aches for you. dont beat yourself up by thinking like that. im sending you hugs and prayers your way.

Thank-you so much for your prayers. It is appreciated greatly.

I am so sorry for your loss. It is so hard to lose those little featherbutts whom we love so much.

I hope your heart heals soon.

I am sorry for your loss. I completely understand the feeling and its bad enough when you are there but even worse when you are not. (((hugs)))

We've all been there and know how you feel, but we know that doesn't help at a time like this. My heart hurts for you. I pray for ease of your pain.

I'm so sorry for your loss. Like everyone has said, don't blame yourself. I will be thinking of you.

Thank-you everybody for your kind words. It has been a difficult week, but eventually I think I will be able to cope long enough to clean out her toys, and perches.

... What has helped the most was the member's thoughts, and prayer. So thank-you once again.